Cognition
this is the way i get when i'm unhappy with myself.
i feel my mistakes pounding in to my head,
lying to my conscience believing that I was misled.
there's things I've learned now since time's passed on.
still i hurt, when will regret be gone.
gone are the days of feeling good within my soul
and I'll gain self respect by gaining self control.
i've got a feeling that i could beat this game.
then I wont have to...
why do i do the wrong thing over and over again?
when it seems the outcome never makes any sense.
i've got a feeling that I could beat this game. then I won't have
to...feel the shame.
Steps
i want to live my life, live it my own way. over throw the shame,
the shame you dealt, brought me to my knees.
always trying to please you instead of living for me
you...say...you say you knows what's best for me.
time...change...the time has come for me to change.
and you controlled my dreams. you never asked me and i never
agreed,
to your requests, goals, destinies. i abandoned you and now i'm
free.
i...live...for...me.
now i, i live my life, live it my own way, forget yesterday.
no expectations just my ambitions. Identity, the choice is up to
me.
Windows
because i can't feel what you feel. i'm afraid to see whats real.
cause one can't go on, go on being beaten upon.
and i can't see how lucky it is to be me.
and i feel ashamed because your life is my worst dream.
through windows we look but we cannot feel
the anguish, suffering and harsh ordeals.
no sense, no sense of empathy is this the way, the way it has to
be.
and you, you look to me, you look to me for sympathy
and what can i say? i might know if i felt the pain.
but we just look away we look away to ignore the pain.
through windows must break the pane.
through windows we see you...through windows we can't feel.
